It is unbelievably outrageous what a woman has to go through to transition from being a woman to a mother. the changes, the adjustments, everything that go through the mind, body and soul to become a mother is absolutely humbling for me. it kind of feels like metamorphosing from a butterfly to a worm. From being someone who takes good care of one's self to someone who lets go and succumbs to the changes that are out of your control and out of this world! To be honest, pregnancy, kind of sucks. don't get me wrong, i know so many women who are trying to become a mom, some take long to be blessed with a little one, others never at all, i do not mean to whine and complain but really, it sucks, but, feels so great at the same time. =)
How did I get myself into this? My husband did this to me. With half of my consent. Yes, half lang talaga. And before I knew it, I was at this peeing- on- a- stick moment alone. Couples vow to do things together forever, and at that terrifying moment where I have to pee on a stick that would change our lives forever, my nerd of a husband could not move away from his World of Warcraft Zone in the house to share the freaking moment with me! omg. my eyes could not believe what was actually unfolding infront of me… slowly, but surely, undeniably eye popping, two lines appeared on the stick! And from that day on, our lives are changed, and from just the three of us, (me, my hubby, and his computer) there will be four of us now! including our little one, who will debut into this world on August =) Come this day, WOW will have to be abolished from our lives, I swear.
Can I whine now? Nobody could ever be prepared for all these. If you say that you are and that you were prepared from the very beginning, then I salute you! Saludo ako sayo. However for me, there were things that I just could not NOT whine about.
Like, ACNE. huhuhu, tagal ko na nde nagkakapimple and then all of a sudden parang may homecoming reunion sila sa likod ko and sa face din. One day, my hubby looked at me and said: O baket ang kapal ng make up mo? Sa loob loob ko baka mas ma shock ka pag nakita mokong walang make up! I have never ever used so much concealer and foundation in my life. Nakakaloka ang daming kailangang takpan! I am so happy I bought Etude concealers from Korea . I used Clarins foundation and it worked like miracle for me. I managed to look decent all through out my eight months so far.
How did I get myself into this? My husband did this to me. With half of my consent. Yes, half lang talaga. And before I knew it, I was at this peeing- on- a- stick moment alone. Couples vow to do things together forever, and at that terrifying moment where I have to pee on a stick that would change our lives forever, my nerd of a husband could not move away from his World of Warcraft Zone in the house to share the freaking moment with me! omg. my eyes could not believe what was actually unfolding infront of me… slowly, but surely, undeniably eye popping, two lines appeared on the stick! And from that day on, our lives are changed, and from just the three of us, (me, my hubby, and his computer) there will be four of us now! including our little one, who will debut into this world on August =) Come this day, WOW will have to be abolished from our lives, I swear.
Can I whine now? Nobody could ever be prepared for all these. If you say that you are and that you were prepared from the very beginning, then I salute you! Saludo ako sayo. However for me, there were things that I just could not NOT whine about.
Like, ACNE. huhuhu, tagal ko na nde nagkakapimple and then all of a sudden parang may homecoming reunion sila sa likod ko and sa face din. One day, my hubby looked at me and said: O baket ang kapal ng make up mo? Sa loob loob ko baka mas ma shock ka pag nakita mokong walang make up! I have never ever used so much concealer and foundation in my life. Nakakaloka ang daming kailangang takpan! I am so happy I bought Etude concealers from Korea . I used Clarins foundation and it worked like miracle for me. I managed to look decent all through out my eight months so far.
Morning Sickness. I had it for 4, yes 4 months! =( Super hirap. I could not hold anything down. I did not have much food aversions but, omg, grabe ang vomitting ko. It starts in the afternoon and drains the sanity off of me. I had to buy a "tabo" coz i managed to injure my tailbone while throwing up daily. It was so freaking hard :( and depressing too coz i really try my best to eat only to puke everything up later. it saddens me because i feel my baby's not getting the nutrition that she needs. There were so many advice given to me on how to reduce morning sickness but nothing worked really. I just had to bear with it. It was so hard.
MY BAOBAB JUICE CRAVING :
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| This is the Baobab Juice |
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| This is the Baobab Tree |
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| those are the baobab fruits. |
MY JOLLIBEE CRAVING:
VINEGAR CRAVING
I also craved vinegar a lot. I wanted to eat everything with vinegar. So i eat green mango and I dip it in vinegar. I ate a lot of paksiw dishes too. =) I liked everything paksiw, like paksiw na bangus, paksiw na galunggong, paksiw na tilapia, paksiw na sapsap, basta, all kinds of paksiw I liked.
Peeing. Bathroom trips are just so frequent, it drives me crazy!!! I go with my friends to the mall and I'm like, I think I pee in ALL of the restrooms from one end of the mall to the other! sigh. and the paranoid in me just couldn't just pee without sanitizing the toilet seat, so I spray it with biogenic alcohol, wait a few secs until i feel all the germs and bacteria have died down before I pee, i'm too scared they'll reach my baby. In the middle of my second trimester, while I was seated on the couch, I felt the room spin and felt so weak, my baby was also frantic in my tummy and I just knew something was wrong. I was brought to the emergency and we found out I had UTI . Apparently, it is normal for pregnant women to have this. I got so sad and frustrated because I was really trying hard to take good care of myself. I had infection in my pee and my blood too so I got dehydrated, the reason for my feel-faint situation by the couch. They gave me meds, I was so worried for my baby and kept on asking if the meds would affect my baby in any way and they said that it was fine. I took the meds religiously and also drank a lot of cranberry juice and water as advised by the doctor.
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| juicilicious chicken joy i want =) |
VINEGAR CRAVING
I also craved vinegar a lot. I wanted to eat everything with vinegar. So i eat green mango and I dip it in vinegar. I ate a lot of paksiw dishes too. =) I liked everything paksiw, like paksiw na bangus, paksiw na galunggong, paksiw na tilapia, paksiw na sapsap, basta, all kinds of paksiw I liked.
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| paksiw na bangus =) GREEN MANGO CRAVING
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Weight Gain. As soon as my morning sickness left me. I ate like a hippoppotamus! so ofcourse, I weighed and started to look like one. I was in Manila for two weeks, came back to Dubai overweight. :( I don't mind looking fat, Im pregnant, for all I care, but, the weight gain took a toll on my back. =( My tummy was getting really heavy and my back was suffering. Sleeping has become a challenge too. Anyway, I'm writing this so I will never forget what people called me during this moment of my life. Cookie told me my neck was starting to disappear and that I look like Michelin Man! Would you believe a friend would actually say this to you??? When she gets pregnant, hopefully soon, I will throw this exact remark on her and see how she reacts! While lying on the couch watching tv, my hubby said, you look like a whale! I'm like, are you serious? you better shut up you insensitive assh*le. I said quota na ko sa pintas tigilan mo na ko. And then need I mention my OB? She said: What have you been eating? Stop eating carbs, Im not happy about your weight gain! And I'm like, I wanna tell her, I'm not happy about you either trying to stop me from eating anything I want, in fact, I hate you! I truly truly with all my heart, i hate you because YOU WANT ME TO STOP EATING RICE!!! And people who tell you to stop eating rice should be hated with a passion! hmmmp! Jelousy called me an Igorot one day when I had pak na pak na blush on to cover my pale face! and Monet who I consulted about it said, I looked fine! hahaha. But seriously, I have always been skinny all my life and for the first time, I am overweight. I was fighting the urge to eat carbs everyday. =( I remember being envied for being able to eat like really really eat and not gain a single pound, those days are over. I needed to watch my weight, I am really scared not to bea ble to have a normal delivery. Im scared of CS. =( Ok I won'y eat rice na talaga promise. Cellulites. My hubby was like, what are those on your legs? Huh? I said WHAT? And when I looked at the mirror, to my horror, I now have cellulites, Ive never had them EVER! but it's ok. I will go to Belo after I deliver my baby and will get rid of every single bit of this scary shit all over my legs that have started to look like logs! My legs are so big!
Wild Vivid Dreams. My dreams were out of this world. Some were crazy shit that drove me mad. I would wake up and would really think the dreams were real. So scary. I also had dreams about my baby, some scary some happy. But the worst dreams were those of food I dream of eating but can't have here in Dubai, like lechon. Haram! In one of my dreams, I was eating lechon like a construction worker who did not eat all day and I woke up with drool over me, oh so yucky me. I am disgusting.
Hormonal Blues. My husband is the culprit and the victim for all of my blues. The shock absorber and the punching bag of my emotional outbursts. I remember crying so much one night when he still wanted to play WOW and I wanted to sleep but can't sleep when he's not next to me. I cried like a little girl sobbing like mad, I cried for hours and even when he was already next to me, I couldn't stop crying. The next day, I looked like a psycho bitch and I hated myself why I cried so much because I feel like Ive stressed my baby too. Ive tried not to cry anymore after that night, I also stopped watching heavy drama so I don't get hyped up to cry.
Clumsiness. In my entire career as a flight attendant, not once did I spill or drop food on any of my customers. I was always sure of how I do things. I always calculate my moves. I was never clumsy. Imagine being one all of a sudden, I broke and damaged so many of my glasses, my plates, everything in the house. I drop everything that I hold. I am always out of balance. It's unbelievable how I've become like this!
Forgetfulness. In the books that I read, they say it's called pregnancy brain, that's what I apparently have at the moment. Well, it sucks. I forget everything. I leave everything behind. I forget appointments, I forget what I'm about to say, I forget what I've said, all these sort of stuff. Sometimes, I'd even forget that I'm pregnant and get surprised to see my tummy so big when I wake up. hahaha. It's crazy that this is because of my pregnancy. I was already forgetful even before I got pregnant and now, I am so much worse! I managed to deal with this by writing notes non stop.
Heartburn and Gas. Need I say more about this. The heartburn came towards my third trimester when my tummy was as big as a watermelon and could no longer manage to sleep properly at any position. It was so tiring to be in bed and not able to rest or sleep. Gassy situations are disgusting and by now, I know my husband will never ever find me sexy anymore, ever! I am disgusted at myself for the rest of my life lol.
What else can I whine about? These are just a few of the many things I hated about pregnancy, but to be honest, the list of what I love about it and what I love about my baby and my being a mom just does not compare. =) I love being pregnant, even though at first I was afraid, I was petrified like the song. One thing I was really looking forward to during my pregnancy is the time when my breasts would get really big like papaya big and engorged, but that eventful day did not come yet! Yes, my breasts remained the same lemon sized pre pregnancy breasts. =( And this got me so worried I started talking to them, yes, the psycho in me, talked to my breasts, saying please please please if you cannot be like Pamela Anderson's big Breasts, just be good and make sure that I can feed my baby with you teeny tiny boppers. And through my research, I found out that all women are capable of breastfeeding and that size does not matter when it came to producing milk. I am so excited to be a mom. I know that there will be more things to whine about, like the labor and delivery that is soon to come, but I know, I just know that everything will be worth it. =) I feel so grateful that I have this baby inside of me and even if in the process I become the size of a whale, even if I feel like shit everyday, even if I am disgusted at myself, even if I am paranoid my hubby will never look at me the same way again, I just know, that this gift from God to me and Sonnie will change our lives forever, for the better =)
Wild Vivid Dreams. My dreams were out of this world. Some were crazy shit that drove me mad. I would wake up and would really think the dreams were real. So scary. I also had dreams about my baby, some scary some happy. But the worst dreams were those of food I dream of eating but can't have here in Dubai, like lechon. Haram! In one of my dreams, I was eating lechon like a construction worker who did not eat all day and I woke up with drool over me, oh so yucky me. I am disgusting.
Hormonal Blues. My husband is the culprit and the victim for all of my blues. The shock absorber and the punching bag of my emotional outbursts. I remember crying so much one night when he still wanted to play WOW and I wanted to sleep but can't sleep when he's not next to me. I cried like a little girl sobbing like mad, I cried for hours and even when he was already next to me, I couldn't stop crying. The next day, I looked like a psycho bitch and I hated myself why I cried so much because I feel like Ive stressed my baby too. Ive tried not to cry anymore after that night, I also stopped watching heavy drama so I don't get hyped up to cry.
Clumsiness. In my entire career as a flight attendant, not once did I spill or drop food on any of my customers. I was always sure of how I do things. I always calculate my moves. I was never clumsy. Imagine being one all of a sudden, I broke and damaged so many of my glasses, my plates, everything in the house. I drop everything that I hold. I am always out of balance. It's unbelievable how I've become like this!
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| Because I was dropping everything and could not pick things up from the floor because of my big tummy, I bought this from Daiso. Lol. It was so handy I pick everything with it, laundry, slippers etc etc. |
Heartburn and Gas. Need I say more about this. The heartburn came towards my third trimester when my tummy was as big as a watermelon and could no longer manage to sleep properly at any position. It was so tiring to be in bed and not able to rest or sleep. Gassy situations are disgusting and by now, I know my husband will never ever find me sexy anymore, ever! I am disgusted at myself for the rest of my life lol.
What else can I whine about? These are just a few of the many things I hated about pregnancy, but to be honest, the list of what I love about it and what I love about my baby and my being a mom just does not compare. =) I love being pregnant, even though at first I was afraid, I was petrified like the song. One thing I was really looking forward to during my pregnancy is the time when my breasts would get really big like papaya big and engorged, but that eventful day did not come yet! Yes, my breasts remained the same lemon sized pre pregnancy breasts. =( And this got me so worried I started talking to them, yes, the psycho in me, talked to my breasts, saying please please please if you cannot be like Pamela Anderson's big Breasts, just be good and make sure that I can feed my baby with you teeny tiny boppers. And through my research, I found out that all women are capable of breastfeeding and that size does not matter when it came to producing milk. I am so excited to be a mom. I know that there will be more things to whine about, like the labor and delivery that is soon to come, but I know, I just know that everything will be worth it. =) I feel so grateful that I have this baby inside of me and even if in the process I become the size of a whale, even if I feel like shit everyday, even if I am disgusted at myself, even if I am paranoid my hubby will never look at me the same way again, I just know, that this gift from God to me and Sonnie will change our lives forever, for the better =)
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