✈ riobebeh in the sky: December 2019

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

What I learned Today

It is never easy to trust people. I learned the hard way, I am trusting and admittedly, an uto uto, I am one of those gullible people that always believe in the good in people.

I never learn. And I am in this limbo of feelings for you. You made me lose faith in humanity. The way you make me feel, I hate it. I want all this to end. There would be days you would be ok. And I would trust again, but then there will be days you make my heart want to explode, of disbelief. How in the world did I get myself in this mess? HOW? and moreso, WHY???

Why did I let myself get in this f*cked up situation.

im a flying mommy, i am lovable, and friendly. trustworthy. i am perky and bubbly. i love life for all its worth and friendship to me is sacred. i love to cook and eat. im a chocoholic and i love eating nutella like most people eat peanut butter. i love shopping like most girls. i love ballet shoes and cute bags and sunglasses. I love butterflies and stars. I love the beach. i love music but not as much as my husband does. i love blogs i have so many of them. i am loquacious and i love listening to other people's stories. what i am best is being a daughter. and always being a loving wife. and a cool sister.i am holding on to sanity and time differences has made me craZy. and dumb. aNd stupid.

I am obsessed with the idea of having my own business. I gave my aquarium to my cleaner Ravi. I love all shades of blue. I also love green and most of my clothes are black. I am always bonkers and I dont like smiling. I love gossip, but I gossip mostly about people i like. I am a sucker for friendship and love. I complain compulsively, and things slowly sink in to me. I have decided that I am grown up enough to choose my friends. I can count all of them with one hand excluding the f*ck you finger. I fantasize about bags I can only have in my dreams. Dreaming is free so if you see me staring, I am dreaming of love, life, and everything in between.

I like to blog. =) I blog about the places never in my life I dreamed I could ever visit. I blog about Food because I love , soo love to eat. I blog about every thing I think about because I want to get it off my head. I blog for when I cannot sleep. I blog and then I would read it again and again. I am probably the most avid visitor of my blog. Coz mostly, I blog for Me :) I love Korean Drama =) I watch it whenever I have free time. I would either be overwhelmingly happy or extremely sad after a series. I would sometimes go for a flight with eyes so sore of too much crying after a late night Kdrama.

I love to cook and eat. I make a really mean sinigang and sinampalukang manok. I make a yummy steak too. Cooking is therapy to me as cleaning is to some girls. I am very patriotic, and I love all things Filipino. I miss my family back home especially my nephew Vaughn. =)

I am an ex-pat who sleeps in different beds all over the world week after week after week.I am a wonderer and a wanderer. I can not be in one place for a very long time. I am a dreamer and my heart overflows with gratitude to the Lord for all my dreams are slowly coming true =)

I call myself riobebeh because i wish my name was longer.im named after rio diaz, the late comedian/ actress. if i could name myself, id call myself julia. im quite perky most of the time. but nowadays ive decided not to. i want to dwell in pain and boredom combined. my greatest weakness would be my family and my strength i draw from the Lord. Im blessed generally, with almost everything. my mom and dad are both loving. i have a goodlooking brother, i have the sweetest sister in the world, two loving godmoms, and friends i could die for. im a sucker for friendship and love.friendship to me is sacred, though I screw up a lot. i can easily be addicted to anything. addicted to shopping, a compulsive chocoholic and a freak for serieses. i can talk continuously for hours and hours you wouldnt even notice. i laugh at myself all the time and when i cry i cant stop. i love to walk out on people when called for. patience, is not one of my virtues. im most of the time a mess, but im a work in progress.