Wake Me Up When September Ends

I got my roster last month for September and I almost almost had a seizure.

I WAS supposedly on top bid, and got the worst roster in my life.
To begin with, they gave me:
>Bangalore
two days off,
Colombo- Male
three days off
Kuwait
Jeddah
Cairo
Dhaka
Delhi
finally, a day off after 5 back to back turnarounds
2 day ACCRA via Abidjan
Nairobi
and Zurich

I desperately desperately wanted to get rid of my Colombo, but then later I found out, I AM UNABLE TO SWAP, AT ALL!!!!

I emailed everyone I could think of who would be able to help me but just ended in vain. Nobody was able to help me, they kept on pointing me from one department to another. And I just burst into tears, and couldn't stop crying... =( I was sulking for three days. my husband found me completely mental because I was so depressed and was so frustrated.

Well, to be honest I thought I was going mental too. My mom told me that I was being waited for by my grandmother who has stage 4 cancer and had meager months to live. Of course I am shattered coz my roster wouldnt let me go home. An emergency leave applies to immediate family only, who I guess would die before you even get all the documents ready, so your supposedly emergency leave, becomes sympathy leave which in turn would be taken out from your official leave days in the end. sigh.

Thankfully, the Lord heard all our prayers and my grandmother seemed better, so I was not forced to take EL. I could see her on my October leave, which I took for my hubby's birthday. Thank God I married a very good man, who understands all my shortcomings. but I'm not happy about it, just plain guilty.

Anyway, I got sick, maybe because I was crying for days. I was just so weak. And as the saying goes, there's a rainbow always after the rain. For some reason, there were no more tears to shed, I begin smiling again. I was happy to have fininshed all my turnarounds without being bitter. Evryday I would wake up with a prayer. I hope my flight today will not drive me insane. Please give me bearable passengers. =) and my prayers were answered, the flights were all done and overwith.

See that's the thing with rosters, or life, you don't always get what you want. Yet whenever it does not come in your favor, then be an adult, accept it and deal with it. I didn't think I could, I have always thought I would call sick just because I was scared of shitty flights. Instead, I had a good time at work, I totally changed my state of mind.

But the story is different with next month, coz I LOVE my roster. Maybe it was because of September's roster that I appreciate next month's.